mourning in the morning

Fuck it. It was just a modelling contest but why was I so hurt when I saw the pictures? Damn they do look good together. They must be a pair. A perfect pair. So what is my role in this world then? I was not even informed that there will be something like that. It was all unexpected. I even prayed that she might win, consoled her when she did not, yet she didn't let me know at all.

And I found it by myself. Damn. Wish that this moment will not leave a scar. Wish that I culd still find the reason to love her.